17.04.2013: The Fish
I firmly believe that things are more than they seem.
Elizabeth Bishop seems to agree with me in her poem, “The Fish“.
This poem reminds me of that fact that everything has a history. Every person, every animal, every object, and certainly every web browser. The history might be evidenced by things that you can see visibly or by looking beneath the surface.
This weekend, I visited three colleges. I already knew what they were like on the surface. I already knew the things they really wanted me to know. I knew that one presented unique research and internship opportunities (Northeastern University in Boston). I knew that one was located in an idyllic hillside town (Denison University in Granville, Ohio). I knew that one was renowned for their Conservatory of Music and the way it affected the non-Conservatory students by creating an atmosphere of creativity and passion (Oberlin College in Ohio).
What is more important is what I do with the information I learned by delving beneath the surface of these schools. The facts I gleaned by talking to the students and spending the night with a host are the things that will impact my decision most of all. Like the speaker in the poem, I have to decide whether I should let them off the hook or not (so to speak).
My plan is to look at the history behind the schools. For example, Oberlin has a history of acceptance. They were the first college to enroll women and black students, and they have a reputation of a commitment to equality and progressiveness.
Honestly, there are so many factors I have yet to consider. I’m still reeling from the idea that I have two weeks in which to choose the place where I will become a real person, with real responsibilities and deadlines and a career. I find it extremely hard to place all my interests into set categories and try to figure out where I want to go based on that. I want to have opportunities I never thought about having. I think that I will eventually find the best school for this undeniably daunting task.